Finding Flow in Life’s Friction - Every Day

We spend so much time in a state of resistance. A state of friction. Some days no matter how hard you try everyone is just going to make you wait for something.

That guy at work is taking forever to get you what you need. You open the washing machine and your shirt is just damp enough you can’t put it on. That loved one you are waiting for a response from is ignoring you. Those three red lights in a row get you going. That left turn into the parking lot to get your hair cut is being paved so you have to go around the street with three left turns.

It goes on and on. Some days you just aren’t going to make any progress. It makes you feel crazy. At some point you just gotta take a deep breath and chill. The universe hates you today. 🤣

So much of life is based on metrics and results and progress and when you have expectations that you are incapable of fulfilling it can be so defeating.

Other days you’re killing it. Everything falls into place. Emails get answered before you even knew they were in the inbox. That work colleague who always second guesses everything and makes a five minute task take three weeks surprises you and gives the project a green light. And sometimes, you get asked to get drinks somewhere fully intent on saying fuck it. But you don’t. And everything in your life turns around.

I love these little decisions. I love looking back on what could’ve been insignificant and realizing it changed the whole trajectory. Maybe someone made you late and saved your life. Maybe that sandwich she was making in line at Jersey Mikes that fell on the floor wasn’t supposed to go in your mouth cuz it had a weird virus. Everything happens for a reason. Saying yes to that girl on that night in November could blow your mind.

When something is easy you almost feel like you’re stealing. How? Why? In what universe could it be this simple. Or maybe that’s the best. When you don’t have to try. You merge into traffic and onto the offramp right before a semi truck blows up behind you. Life is crazy. And there is so much value in careful decisions - but almost as equally in spontaneous wreck less abandon.

Either way you kinda gotta roll with it after the fact. The good things make your heart ache and you keep chasing them over and over cuz you’re scared it might go away. The bad things make your heart ache and you keep running away from them cuz you’re scared they will never go away.

We have no idea why any of this happens or when it will stop. It is just a constant battle to find the good stuff and shield yourself from the bad. Make decisions, fail, get up, learn something, try it again. Your heart has little baby scars on it that don’t leave. You just keep putting new ones on top of the old ones. But then you also appreciate the positive and it makes you smile because you know it is fleeting - you know you get older - you know if you hold on just a little longer it will change. You just keep saying over to yourself the only thing that can really help you “All Things Must Pass.”